Second Chances

-I made the mistake again of typing up a Post

-of a list of things as if it were going to be an unchangeable Contract

-really bad choices

-meant to be like ultimate sexual lifestyles

-and it if true would be like a legend

-but this time I Posted the list thinking the Watcher might be setting it up

-I rethought it for good. Like the film Bridge to Terabithia / Terra a Traitor character

-and deleted it

-but that might be used by the Destroyer

-for this Blog

-like I basically Destroyed my life

-the Destroyer

-the two times while I was asleep at night

-with both dreams and day's events parallel

-each time while asleep in my bed I felt hands in my back

-like now I see the Brittany Spears and Madonna song Me Against the Music

-and the repeating lyric In the Zone

-like to say almost all of space is like a Paradise

-except for our Earth

-and I Posted the scan I made of a stone

-a ball shaped, large stamp sized, grey stone

-I thought might be connected to Creation or the Big Bang

-the stone I got when a Staff Member was taking some of us to the Pools in Greeerton

-and at a client's home I saw it and was able to have it

-being at another's home makes it harder to take before I did or to be left there to have me on

-the client said he didn't want to come because he had constipation

-like the start of things. I got feces on the walls of three of my rooms

-and was taken to Hospital for 3 weeks for constipation. Including an operation

-the idea to set up things

-Creation / Excretion / Constipation / Greerton / Generation

-I recently found under my bed

-a Tina Turner / Destroyer Audio Cassette Simply the Best I ordered hoping it was a DVD

-the Tina Turner cassette under my bed like hands on my back in my sleep

-it is me somehow feeling hands on my back in my sleep that makes me Post this

-like a Bridge and the photo of my Grandfather in the sea with one leg straight out parallel to the waterline up around him

-when young I saw on his shorts a wet spot where his penis end was

-I might have set up reached out and touched it